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as for why, only my lj-friends know.

kthx.

so. i check my email a few min ago, and i see this message from myspace that says megan sent me a message. i thought that that was odd because since i added her to my myspace, she hasn't said two words to me or even sent me a message when we added each other.

i log onto myspace and see a message from her that says, "i am not your friend. remove me from your list." no please, nothing nice abot it. just "i want nothing to do with you, don't talk to me.". *eyeroll* yeah, okay - bitter much? okay, so we had a bit of a falling out a couple of years ago. i was willing to put that aside and start chatting with her again. i wasn't asking for friendship, just to keep in touch with a few people that i had gone to high school with. then again, its hard to be friends with or even keep in touch with a frigid bitch.

i could be a lot angrier, i seriously could. but really - i don't want anything to do with some bitter old hag that can't be mature enough to put something that's in the past IN THE PAST. i can see that she hasn't changed much since we were friends, and she's probably still can't bag a guy and is incredibly lonely.

good. i'm glad. i hope she dies alone, frigid and bitter.

/me screams

OMFG! I AM OFFICIALLY A STUDENT AT MOHAWK COLLEGE!

*runs around the building screaming at the top of her lungs and giggling like a little girl*

i'm not excited - what are you talking about?! *whistles innocently* i wanna go to OCAS website and confirm my seat, but they sent me some info i wanna read first before i do that. i'm like ... hyper and excited and shaking. *squee*

okay. yeah. i gotta clean some too ... i better do it while i'm hyper and have extra energy, ehn?? teehee.

(yay for kataish helping me get the paintbrush i want on neopets!)

i love what i added to my msn nick:

"I'd give my left testicle to have that paintbrush ... if I had testicles ..."

teehee.

/me is a dork

so i get my next EI check a week from tuesday.
i'm still waiting to find out if i'm accepted at mohawk. at least i know they got my NBCC Mctn transcript.
mom emailed me and teased me that all i wanted to do when i went home to visit was eat. hey, i do have blakney DNA (its a family joke that my mom and her sister LOVE to eat).

*does a raspberry with her tongue*

haven't been doing much ... working on my grandmother's xmas gift. it's bigger than i thought it was - hope its done by xmas! i've been reading my book, yoga by your type (type = ayurvedic dosha). in general, i've just been lazy.

pete's doing the ottawa run this week. he flies from T.O. to Ottawa in the morning, then back to T.O. at night. spends the entire day in Ottawa - and hopes that they aren't too late that he HAS to stay at the hotel in T.O. and can come home for the night.

decided that i'm going to get my lip pierced - not my labret, but right between my lower lip. its only $40 at skinner tattoos - a tattoo/piercing place run by two women. i's is gonna do it after i get my ei check. and i'm going to go to futureshop AGAIN and see if they have the next expansion pack for The Sims 2 THIS TIME ... went on Saturday. it was on sale for $30, but there WAS NONE. and no one was around to help me. so i basically muttered, "yeah, fuck you too. guess you don't want my business today." and left. again - PMSing that day. wasn't overly amused.

i was thinking ... how diffifult would it be to put on lipgloss/lipstick with a piercing in the middle of your lower lip? i suppose with a wand/brush, it wouldn't be too hard - just shove it under the ring. and i swear, if they make me rinse my mouth out with that original listerine crap, they're gonna get an earful. that stuff tastes like SHIT - had to rinse with it when i got my tongue done, and i couldn't even FEEL my tongue for the rest of the day. damn stuff froze my tongue.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways. back to downloading stuff from TSR. *le sigh*

my mother is going to think i'm nuts, i swear. *blink* well, she already knows i'm nuts - just look at my DNA.

anyways.

i don't know if i mentionned this before, but mom offered to pay for a plane ticket for pete and i to come and visit before the weather gets too bad (since we can't get down for christmas) and before i start school. i told her that pete doesn't really have any time off right now since he just started at skylink in may, but i could come. so she offered to pay for my ticket down (hell, to fly westjet from hamilton to moncton is only like $104 for each way. CHEAP!). i just emailed her and told her that i'd love to go and suggested the dates nov 15 to nov 21, since i want to go to toronto for the day on nov 14 to do my christmas shopping. what? there's stores there i want to get things at for my sis-in-law's, my cousin, and kataish. so i'm going for the day and get it all done.

so when i emailed mom back, i said i wanted to do the following things:

(1) get pizza at greco. there's none in hamilton ... closest one is in stoney creek, and its far enough to just be out of delivery reach. so i want some greco when i go visit them (there's one that's like a 10 min walk away).

(2) get chicken fried rice + spare ribs from chan's house. that's my all-time favourite chinese restaurant - there's no replacing it.

(3) i want to eat sausages (my FAVE!) fro Kurt's sausages. i haven't eaten those in SO long - i've been craving them! and if i can, i want to bring some back with me.

(4) i want to go to walton's (bakery in riverview) and get a couple of loaves of bread and other baked goodies to bring back with me. i miss it!

AND. i plan on getting something for the puppies at the little doggie boutique that's a couple of blocks away from here. yeah, i'm getting xmas gifts for them from there ... but i want to get them a little something for NOW. 'cause i miss those puppies!!

okay. enough for now - i wait for pete to come home.

i've been very bitter, angry, and depressed the past week. i have been taking my medications. so its not like this is a result of withdrawl or anything. i think its just the weather changing, because i have always been a human barometer. it used to be REALLY REALLY bad when i was younger ... like, even if it would rain in the middle of summer, my mood would match. now, its mostly just when the seasons change - like, going from fall to winter, i get a bit depressed. i do suffer from severe depression, so its not S.A.D. --- but the S.A.D. season doesn't help much.

i got an email from a now ex-penpal, pagan_soul21, telling me that she didn't have the time to be my penpal anymore. i know i should be upset, but ... yeah. just not there - all i could think was, "good. one less letter to reply too!" ... as bad as that sounds. but yeah, that's just been my mood the past week.

OH. speaking of letters, i got one from on ... monday? tuesday? *blinks* i don't quite remember, oddly enough. but i got one SOMETIME since friday. honestly, i think that the whole weekend i was sick as a blur - probably because i slept for 1/2 hour to 2 hours whenever i was tired, which ended up being every couple of hours. i have a letter written to my girl julie, and i'm going to walk to the mail box in a couple of hours. i got a couple of other things to send as well - not letters, but other stuff. so i'll send it then.

so now i have emma's ( letter to reply to ... and ... *blank stare* ... christ, i just saw this envelope that i addressed last night. OH! that's it. sarah's (oh christ. where the hell is my head? i can't even think of her LJ name off the top of my head.) too. then i'm done. but this TOTALLY sucks that all my penpals are just dropping me - i hate it. absolutely hate it. doesn't help my depressed mood, either - makes me feel even shittier. (is "shittier" even a word?)

oh. and pete found a mirror to replace the one i smacked off of the van. there was one on ebay for like $35, but then shipping was $65 to Canada, so he said he might as well just get one here in hamilton. so he went and did that. i have to go through my older issues of my natural health magazines and cut out stuff for collages to decorate my moleskin journal. i was going to do that before, but i didn't have a glue stick until i got off of my ass and walked to the shoppers a few blocks away.

and i have charmed season 6 on dvd. yay me! only 2 more seasons to collect! i think season 6 was the only season i actually watched COMPLETELY as it aired - i think because we had the WB channel (via Rogers digital cable), and with the other seasons we didn't. and CTV kept changing times it would air charmed, and i could never keep track of when it was on. YAY! i should make a list of DVDs i want.

i think mid-november i will take the go train up to toronto to do some christmas shopping. and hopefully get it done all in one fowl (foul?) swoop. that would be awesome - AND the get them all wrapped and sent out. well, the ones i have to send to new brunswick and nova scotia. i need to get them out the last week of november/first week of december - because we all know how reliable canada post is! (note to self: EXPRESS POST WITH TRACKING NUMBER!)

anyways. yeah. back to playing neopets.

that's it - i quit.
i give up.

quit what?

everything. i'm fed up.

yes, i still feel like shit. for shits&giggles, let's list what's going on ...

(1) Fever (101 F)
(2) Chills
(3) Nausea/Vomiting
(3) General Fatigue
(4) Muscle soreness ALL OVER

so yeah, i'm not feeling the best. i'm lying on the couch right now with my blankets and trying to relax. at least my chills aren't overly bad right now - and i haven't vomited. yet. i was up at 6am and FREEZING (even though every blanket in the apartment was on me), so i went and took a hot hot hot bath hoping i'd warm up. i think the water was so hot that it would have burnt me if i hadn't had the chills.

past 3 days ... kataish was in hamilton. chilled out most of the time, went to toronto for the afternoon on wednesday. then we had to beat our way through detours when i drove her back home. UGH.

okay, i was going to go into more detail ... but i just can't do it right now. not feeling well enough.

sorry for not posting the past couple of days - i've been busy with kataish! needless to say, i think i am now coming down with something and just don't have the energy to do a bigger update right now. but i'm still alive, i swear.